This is not my life, or maybe it is....?

I am alive. 5 exams, a roots paper, a full day of officiating sports, and a presentation later, I am still standing. Except, right now I'm sitting, but I'm still breathing.
So the whole week(end) went by just as expected....I studied and studied and typed and typed and even had to go without Jacob for a few days. Its been an eventful 8 days but I'm glad its over, and its great to return to my normal, less responsible life.
Tomorrow I am going to see Paranormal Activity 2. Its the first time I'll be seeing a movie since August, when I was still home. I told myself I wouldn't get as bad as last year, but I find myself yearning for Michigan everyday (even the cold weather(sometimes)). But then again, the semester is more than halfway over, and going by quicker than any semester I can ever remember (college or high school), and I think I'll be on that plane ride back sooner than later.
Besides that, not much is going on. Well.....
I talked to Jacob today and he said he was seriously considering transferring to his girlfriend's school in California. I think, for the most part, I talked him out of it a little bit (thankfully, he doesn't read this) but I do think he has good reasons in doing so. I need to act fast in order to make a few things better than what they are right now. That starts with this coming weekend (Jacob's birthday), which is looking pretty good as of right now. Let's hope it stays that way.
Lately I've been thinking about how my life would be if certain things didn't come into play. Get this:
In April of 2009, one of the last months of my senior year of high school, I was ENROLLED at Michigan State. I had a roomate, a dorm, the works. Then one day in April, I got a letter from St. Ed's telling me how much scholarship money they were handing over to me. It was an offer I couldn't afford to not take.
Sometimes, on boring nights like tonight, usually, I think about just how different things woud have been if I had been able to stay in the state. I wouldn't be leaving anyone (its less than a two hour drive from home), its a huge school so there would always be someone to hang out with or talk to, and I would probably never be bored.
But when I think of that, I also think that a higher power might have interfered, because a lot of good things happened, as well. My friends and I found that leaving each other sucks, but it makes coming home so much better. I also learned a ton over last year, with adversity and the importance of friendship. I also met a lot of cool people! Maybe there's even someone special down here ;)
But I do enjoy the fact that my Texas life and my Michigan life are completely different. It seems that just when I start to tire of one life, its already time to head over to the other one.
Speaking of......I don't really know. I'm tired and really want to do laundry before I go to bed (relatively early). Hopefully I will be back before the weekend.

I've been waiting for this moment all my life, but it's not quite right

Funny how this is the middle of a very busy day for me, but its been a very long time, and it looks like I have about 2 and a half hours to spare until my next event.
Well shoot, a lot has happened since last time. My friend Phil and his girlfriend Megan broke up after over 3 years! And the next day, Mike and his boo Amanda broke up. Naturally, being 1500 miles away, I wondered what the heck was going on back home. Turns out, people just realize what is working in their life, and what's not. And the things that are not working are the things that need fixing.
Also, I think Dave had quite the good night last night, because he is now TAKEN.
Things are going to be a bit different when I come home Christmas time. I feel like everyone will actually be on (roughly) the same schedule, just like last year, and its going to be be a very memorable 5 weeks for me.
However, thinking that far ahead might be the very death of me. Ranging from Monday to next Monday, I have 5 exams and a roots paper. The sooner October is over, the better.
Going back to earlier about what I said concerning the things that are working in a person's life and the things that aren't, I'm reminded of 500 Days of Summer. The whole time, it seemed that Tom was focusing too much on what was good in his relationship with Summer. This isn't a bad thing to do at all, but I think that too much of this will start to bring you down.
I feel like I have had a few too many of these relationships with people lately, focusing so much on the good that it blinds you to the fact that things would just never work. Well, that needs work.
I have quite the busy weekend/week coming up, so don't expect me back for a while. At least I'm being honest.

You Were Surely Still an Actress All the Men Would Find Attractive

Hahaha. Alright, well I didn't really have an epiphany. I really just took a drunk walk through downtown Austin. Obviously, when one does that, their mind is going to be racing.
Um, other than that, not much has happened.
That's an understatement. Things have been...notable. I will do myself a favor and not talk about Thursday night. I was in the wrong place at the wrong, and I will not hinder myself from doing anything similar. And that's all I have to say about that.
I do enjoy the link I put up, though. I feel like I have a good taste in music. And so does Matt Nathanson. He is my new study buddy.
Shoot, my life is boring. There is nothing to talk about.
I got a haircut yesterday. I don't see myself growing it out anytime soon. And "anytime soon" would probably mean until I can't grow it long anymore. Ugh.
Oh. Tomorrow is the first game of our volleyball season. We're looking to repeat our title run. Exciting, right?
And I have to referee the whole day. First football, then volleyball, and then our game. I'm going to be drained.
Son of a gun, there is NOTHING to talk about.
Speaking of that. I feel like lately I've been having a lot of those "wish I would have said something more" moments. Even though these have been pissing me off more than anything. But on the bright side, this means that I have put that one awful weekend behind me. The one where I didn't care about anything. Yeah, that one.
I've noticed that over the course of this week, I have been missing home more than I usually do. I also thought about just how different my home life and my college life are. At home, just being with my friends and doing whatever makes me feel content with everything. Here, I feel like if I'm not at a party or downtown, I'm not having fun. But I mean, its whatever. How you see your life is the way that it actually is. No one except yourself can tell you how happy you are.
So yeah. Its whatever. Like I've mentioned before, I think school just brings me down to a crappy level because it kicks my ass so much. Here's to waiting until December 9th.
Alright. I'm going to go put on a movie or something. Byeeeee.