And you never would have thought in the end, how amazing it feels just to live again.

Sooner than expected. It was a pretty good weekend to start off the year. Friday I hung out with some good friends and realized that some board games can actually be much better if females happen to go out to get something to eat. And Saturday was doing what I do best in Austin. That's as far as I'm going to go. But the weekend to come has some high expectations.
Speaking of high expectations, I've been thinking a lot about this life lately. I went through a pretty rough patch last year where I just saw everything in life as a failed expectation of everything else. I don't think I've really said this to anyone, but I have this strange superiority complex that makes me think I need to be the most well known, have the most friends, get the best paying job, etc. if I ever want to have a chance at being happy. I use to think that everyone had this problem, as I passed other people who I thought I was "better" than and wondered to myself if they were happy with the lives they were living. A while ago I thought about everything and realized that things like these stupid pop songs about the fake everlasting love, those television shows that depict the unbelievable college experience where every single day seems to be awesome enough to be documented on a tv screen, the magazines that depict how people should "really" look, those "once in a lifetime" parties that you always wish you could go back to but realize that its behind you forever.....those are what's to blame for all of this. They bludgeon people with false hopes that their lives are going to be so much better than they are presently. And the only way to see past these things and to live your OWN life is some kind of pre-midlife crisis where you come to the realization that you're only going to get out of this life what you put into it. Others know it as "growing up." I call it "college."
Luckily that stuff is all behind me but I just thought it'd be nice to post remembrance of such times. Like I said, I have a a great weekend coming up, after a "I don't really know what to expect" week of school that's also coming up. Mostly checking to see if my phone will ever go off.